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If I were an animal....what animal do you see me as? 

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Sdalkfj by VerdantFury
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yay vent art~! you can definitely feel free to ignore this. mainly just documentation of moods for future reference and trying to express myself artistically so old shit doesn't come cropping back up.

dude. i cannot begin to describe how emotionally and mentally draining it is to be growing up, growing older, having to try to mature. i don't know what the fuck i want. i don't know what the fuck i'm going to be doing. i don't know who i'll be with. i look happy and upbeat most of the time but it's a fucking mask. i'm stressed. i'm nervous. i feel sick. i feel like shit. but then i realize things will be okay, right? then i start thinking again. i feel like everything is just a fucking roller coaster. slowly climbing up one hill to happiness and then just fucking flying back down that dark decline into the dark. and repeat. and repeat. and repeat...i don't deal well with it. i don't deal well with myself. i fucking hate who i am most of the time because of what i can do to other people. what i'm capable of. because i don't know me. i don't know what i want. i don't know what to do. the guy i'm with now? great guy. but not for me. because i know i'm going to hurt him. because i know i want more. i know as long as i'm with him i'll be looking for someone else. and he knows. goddammit does he know. and here i still am. here we still are. why the fuck does he cling to much to someone so worthless when he knows i'm going to end up hurting him?! and goddammit, my family. they're all wonderful people. full of potential. college, army, marines, air force, successful business people. every time i gather near them i loathe myself. i can't be like that. i'm a simpleton. i've always been okay with settling at the bottom. but i want things. i want what they have. i want people to be proud of me. i want to be the child that gets bragged about, not my brother. but dammit, i love them all so much and i'm so proud of them. why can't i be okay where i am? why can't i go any further in life? because i fucking cling to people. because i'm terrified to do things on my own. i'm too goddamn used to relying on others. i don't know how to do things on my own. i lack the fucking motivation. i procrastinate. i lurk in the dark and cause all the reasons for hating myself. i can do better, i can be better, i can surpass all of those that i look up to! but i don't. i'm still so content to sit and watch. but i will be better! somehow...some way...i will find it in myself. i will do the things that i have to in order to one day finally really fucking love myself. vent over. fuck this moody shit.
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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 19, 2014, 10:59 AM


Not sure about streaming tonight after all XD Currently cleaning like a madwoman and I don't even have anything ready for tonight. If things change, I'll keep everyone updated. ovo


I will stream tomorrow. Same time, around 5 p.m CST. We'll see how things go~


alrighty, I was tagged by :iconcuriousrune: Let's see if I can think of more interesting things about myself. lol

1) My two favorite cereals are Corn Flakes and plain Cheerios.
2) I've gotten hooked on Ginger Ale.
3) I call Coca Cola "cock". Long story. lol
4) I'm an adrenaline junky when I'm not being a chicken.
5) That being said, I fucking love roller coasters.
6) I talk and type like a sailor. Words are words.
7) I typically have a low BS tolerance.
8) Plaid and stripes are my go-to patterns.
9) I won't say no to polka-dots or any other pattern though. No likey plain shirts most of the time.
10) I devolve into a giggly idiot over Markiplier and anyone with an accent.

RUNE'S QUESTIONS:

1. A zombie apocalypse has just started, what would be your weapon of choice?

:bulletblue: I'd love anything long range or something I could throw. Maybe the Green Arrow's whole set up. With explosive arrows, it doesn't matter how out of practice I am with archery. XD

2. Why was 6 afraid of 7?

:bulletblue: Because 7 8 9. Or because he's a prime number. Or just odd. Maybe because 7 is a common number in Numerology?

3. Dragons. What do you think of them?

:bulletblue: I want one so bad. QAQ Fuck paying for gas, I'mma ride my dragon to work. Fuck airplanes, lemme hop on my dragon, I'll be there later today. It would be fucking awesome XD

4. What's your opinion on hugs? :icondragonhugplz:

:bulletblue: Love getting and giving them depending on the person. XD

5. What would you do if you were to meet me?

:bulletblue: I'd probably talk your leg off and drag you off to go eat fries. lol

6. If you could be transferred into any fictional world where would you go?

:bulletblue: Fuck that's a really hard question to answer. SO MANY WORLDS. Shit. I'd love Middle Earth, Hogwarts, that one place in Fire Emblem Awakening, Kingdom Hearts, Sword Art Online...IDK QAQ

7. If you could be fused with any animal what animal would you be fused with?

:bulletblue: A cat, since I seem to act like one apparently. lol

8. A ghostly figure appears beside you one night. How would you react?

:bulletblue: After I shit my pants, I'd most likely record the event and pray to the gods a ghost hunting team wrangles me up to join them. XD

9. What is the wierdest/funniest song you have ever heard?

:bulletblue: Hamzilla. 8I Courtesy of Kimera. Or Anaconda. lol

10. If I were a pokemon what do you think I would be?


:bulletblue: Hmmmm.....most likely a dragon type, or one of those cute little ones you can carry around everywhere. Most likely a dragon type though XD


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Chat Antics- gdi Dash by VerdantFury
Chat Antics- gdi Dash
So we all know the phrase: "I used to be an adventurer like you, but then I took an arrow to the knee." right? Well essentially taking an arrow to the knee means getting married. And Dash has fired many an arrow into my poor knees. |D So many times, in fact, that I'm pretty sure my knees are naught but arrowheads now. :v Buttface.

Dash and I own ourselves respectively. :v
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Journal Entry: Wed Nov 19, 2014, 10:59 AM


Not sure about streaming tonight after all XD Currently cleaning like a madwoman and I don't even have anything ready for tonight. If things change, I'll keep everyone updated. ovo


I will stream tomorrow. Same time, around 5 p.m CST. We'll see how things go~


alrighty, I was tagged by :iconcuriousrune: Let's see if I can think of more interesting things about myself. lol

1) My two favorite cereals are Corn Flakes and plain Cheerios.
2) I've gotten hooked on Ginger Ale.
3) I call Coca Cola "cock". Long story. lol
4) I'm an adrenaline junky when I'm not being a chicken.
5) That being said, I fucking love roller coasters.
6) I talk and type like a sailor. Words are words.
7) I typically have a low BS tolerance.
8) Plaid and stripes are my go-to patterns.
9) I won't say no to polka-dots or any other pattern though. No likey plain shirts most of the time.
10) I devolve into a giggly idiot over Markiplier and anyone with an accent.

RUNE'S QUESTIONS:

1. A zombie apocalypse has just started, what would be your weapon of choice?

:bulletblue: I'd love anything long range or something I could throw. Maybe the Green Arrow's whole set up. With explosive arrows, it doesn't matter how out of practice I am with archery. XD

2. Why was 6 afraid of 7?

:bulletblue: Because 7 8 9. Or because he's a prime number. Or just odd. Maybe because 7 is a common number in Numerology?

3. Dragons. What do you think of them?

:bulletblue: I want one so bad. QAQ Fuck paying for gas, I'mma ride my dragon to work. Fuck airplanes, lemme hop on my dragon, I'll be there later today. It would be fucking awesome XD

4. What's your opinion on hugs? :icondragonhugplz:

:bulletblue: Love getting and giving them depending on the person. XD

5. What would you do if you were to meet me?

:bulletblue: I'd probably talk your leg off and drag you off to go eat fries. lol

6. If you could be transferred into any fictional world where would you go?

:bulletblue: Fuck that's a really hard question to answer. SO MANY WORLDS. Shit. I'd love Middle Earth, Hogwarts, that one place in Fire Emblem Awakening, Kingdom Hearts, Sword Art Online...IDK QAQ

7. If you could be fused with any animal what animal would you be fused with?

:bulletblue: A cat, since I seem to act like one apparently. lol

8. A ghostly figure appears beside you one night. How would you react?

:bulletblue: After I shit my pants, I'd most likely record the event and pray to the gods a ghost hunting team wrangles me up to join them. XD

9. What is the wierdest/funniest song you have ever heard?

:bulletblue: Hamzilla. 8I Courtesy of Kimera. Or Anaconda. lol

10. If I were a pokemon what do you think I would be?


:bulletblue: Hmmmm.....most likely a dragon type, or one of those cute little ones you can carry around everywhere. Most likely a dragon type though XD


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